5.11.2004
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inferior.
intrinsic evil.
5.06.2004
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4.25.2004
4.20.2004
its up at http://www.xanga.com/barbwire69 now.
[ eiz lit a prayer & wrangled off ]
7:16:00 PM
its time for a change of blog.
im sick and irritated by the gutless people who mostly have bad english who drop by.
at least they make the effort to do so.
but i rather they diss me than the people i love.
which boils down to the reason behind my blog changing.
ask me for my new address yeah?
its a new, by 'invitation' online journal only for the exclusive loved ones.
to ms passerby, annoymous, anon, i hate you etc.
im quite tickled by the fact you all actually bother enough about me to leave nice tags and emails.
in anycase.
hopefully you all find something new to occupy yourselves with while i entertain myself with my spanking new online journal.
emails and tags, as before, remain unentertained.
and being overly jealous helps with the ageing process.
speeds it up quite abit.
[ eiz lit a prayer & wrangled off ]
7:54:00 PM
[ eiz lit a prayer & wrangled off ]
1:50:00 AM
i wish things were alot simplier.
i wish i didnt care so much about the material stuff.
i wish you didnt exist.
then maybe things wouldnt be the way they are now.
lit seminar was funadundun.
*grins*
gossiping and bitching and laughing and sneaking around.
i love the QV bang.
[ eiz lit a prayer & wrangled off ]
12:36:00 AM
chainsaw.
maybeimtakingthingsforgranted.
beingoverlydemanding.
but you are too.
im being taken for granted and getting ignored.
and i frigging hate that.
let me remind you that i dont come easy.
eileen never does.
[ eiz lit a prayer & wrangled off ]
6:19:00 PM
mucho mambo.
a measly number of photos have been posted.
four.
hehe.
but i'd work on that.
clickety click!
[ eiz lit a prayer & wrangled off ]
8:04:00 PM
every word i say is true.
wanni por, happy happy schweet sixteenth.
the third zier to reach this swashbucking number.
we'd walk the gangway together yeah?
and we wont fall.
i really dont know if i should go for it.
a small part of me cries out for that attention - the idiotic attention seeker i am.
then maybe they'd like me more, love me more.
i can deal with rejection.
i know that there's tons of people who are the icing, and im just one of the layers in the cake.
if i fall flat on my face, no one would really know.
besides. its not as if im being thick-headed.
i was asked. and thats the difference.
but something's holding me back and i dont know what.
its irritating; that nagging feeling.
perhaps i should just do it.
do it, do it, do it.
yes, i did watch Starsky & Hutch.
its shocking to know how shallow and superficial people can be.
how criticism and praise affects a person's decision.
hanging on for the sake of it, being 'in love' for one's own gain, getting together for 'fun and experience' - it cheapens the concept of love.
it rips love from the potter's wheel and wrecks it.
[ eiz lit a prayer & wrangled off ]
9:00:00 PM
i just want you to know.
quiz, im so so so sorry.
but your birthday dedication will be a belated one.
because my photoshop's down. phooey.
happy sweet sixteenth anyway.
you're the second zie who's able to stroll into nc16s!
there's so many items i want to buy.
just that my moo-lah's almost rock bottom.
i've fallen in love with a $49 MNG bag.
pretty please?
owning it would be total bliss.
[ eiz lit a prayer & wrangled off ]
1:30:00 AM
gaze into the mirror
take a good look at yourself.
and tell me what you see.
i believe you're deluded.
call me a bitch for putting you down.
your friends have all done so too - with more tact than me, of course.
you're hilarious. such a joke.
and you remind me of william hung.
please bear in mind that i hate him to the core.
as much as i hate your attitude.
kissing my ass.
and polishing my boots.
will not get you anywhere.
near me.
thankyouverymuch anyway.
i love my daddy so so sooo many much more most!
[ eiz lit a prayer & wrangled off ]
10:32:00 PM